Fantasy vs. Reality
Peter and Soren went up to visit some friends of ours in Bellingham. Peter's been planning this for awhile (it was a ski trip), and honestly I knew the time would come when he and Soren would start taking to the road while I'm working. Actually, I'm sort of surprised that it has taken 2 1/2 years before it happened. But still, I have to say that I wasn't really excited about it. I really love to see them every day!
As the time drew closer though I started thinking about the possibility of all this free time that I was going to have. For me, other than the lack of sleep, the loss of free time has been the hardest part of motherhood. So the idea of having 4 days with only myself to please grew more appealing. I could go shopping! Take long leisurely baths! Get a pedicure! Lay on the couch and read magazines! Go to the movies! So many possibilities.
Well, now here we are on the last day of all my free time...and what have I accomplished? I did do quite a bit of aimless shopping on Sunday. That was fun. Soren is a good shopping partner but we don't just browse too much. I went in to a bunch of stores that I'd never even been in before. But since then I've gone in to work early and stayed at work late every day. Is this what I did with my free time when I was childless? I've accomplished a lot..but still it didn't turn out quite as blissfully relaxing as I anticipated.
They are on their way home now. I'm excited to see them. Maybe I'll take that long leisurely bath after Soren goes to bed tonight...
As the time drew closer though I started thinking about the possibility of all this free time that I was going to have. For me, other than the lack of sleep, the loss of free time has been the hardest part of motherhood. So the idea of having 4 days with only myself to please grew more appealing. I could go shopping! Take long leisurely baths! Get a pedicure! Lay on the couch and read magazines! Go to the movies! So many possibilities.
Well, now here we are on the last day of all my free time...and what have I accomplished? I did do quite a bit of aimless shopping on Sunday. That was fun. Soren is a good shopping partner but we don't just browse too much. I went in to a bunch of stores that I'd never even been in before. But since then I've gone in to work early and stayed at work late every day. Is this what I did with my free time when I was childless? I've accomplished a lot..but still it didn't turn out quite as blissfully relaxing as I anticipated.
They are on their way home now. I'm excited to see them. Maybe I'll take that long leisurely bath after Soren goes to bed tonight...
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